In the last 12 months I have learned much better who I am. I am comfortable with myself for the most part and am making better choices for my future than ever before. WHY? Because God has placed a hold on my heart like I have never known. His promises are real and His faithfulness is real. I am beyond thankful for this.
Sometimes I sit and wonder why it took so long for me to figure it out?? Why did I wander around content with half truth and not really experiencing God?? I guess I still wonder it, but it doesn't matter, it has all shaped who I am today.
This year I want to grow, stretch and be out of my comfort zone. I want to be immersed in the things God wants me to be so that I can help others find what I found. I want to pray specificly. I want my heart to reflect how much God loves His people, how much He loves me. :) I want to stregthen and build real relationships with people who are on the same journey and be open to relationships that aren't always easy, but that God wants to use me in.
Guide my thoughts and actions this coming year
Great is Thy faithfulness, O God, my Father.
Monday, December 31, 2012
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Our best, until it doesn't feel good.
"This started making me crazy. I just wanted to be more like Jesus...except when I didn't."
This had been on my mind for the past 24 hours. This is the problem isn't it.
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
don't forget
The extent in which I "trust in the Lord" varies from moment to moment. I want to develop that rich faith that trusts deeply!
I have been blessed to have faith in God as part of my life my whole life...but when you choose it for yourself...truly choose it and it becomes heart knowledge it is a whole new thing. My heart is bursting, racing and overflowing. I understand the the JOY of the Lord is my strength and that does NOT mean that life is easy, happy go lucky and nothing bad is happening.
Yesterday, because I have God's promises tucked away, I survived a yucky day in a way I wouldn't have been able to before. As I went to bed, these are some of the readings I had....and I couldn't help but know God was still with me and that he never left.
"Consider it all joy...when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing." (James 1:2-4)
"We are promised the benefit of endurance when we encounter a crisis. If we meet the testing in the right way, we will become stable, and our character will look more like Christ's character.
Looking like Christ is definitely a benefit!" "What's It Like To Be Married To Me"
Awesome...ok part two spoke to my heart that is just doing cartwheels and jumping jacks lately waiting for God to show me what He wants for me next:
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowlege HIM and HE will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3: 5-6
Father God,
I want to give up my maniplating and trying to control situations I don't like. I want to learn to sit and wait on You and trust you even in the tough times. I want to develop endurance and character and look like You. I ask you to hold my hand because I have 29 years of back tracking to do to reprogram myself, but all things are possible when you are my partner in life.
Help me choose to fill my holes of emptiness with You first. Help me to seek you first. And forgive me for where I have already failed today.
Thank you for words from others to encourage me on my journey.
I have been blessed to have faith in God as part of my life my whole life...but when you choose it for yourself...truly choose it and it becomes heart knowledge it is a whole new thing. My heart is bursting, racing and overflowing. I understand the the JOY of the Lord is my strength and that does NOT mean that life is easy, happy go lucky and nothing bad is happening.
Yesterday, because I have God's promises tucked away, I survived a yucky day in a way I wouldn't have been able to before. As I went to bed, these are some of the readings I had....and I couldn't help but know God was still with me and that he never left.
"Consider it all joy...when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing." (James 1:2-4)
"We are promised the benefit of endurance when we encounter a crisis. If we meet the testing in the right way, we will become stable, and our character will look more like Christ's character.
Looking like Christ is definitely a benefit!" "What's It Like To Be Married To Me"
Awesome...ok part two spoke to my heart that is just doing cartwheels and jumping jacks lately waiting for God to show me what He wants for me next:
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowlege HIM and HE will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3: 5-6
Father God,
I want to give up my maniplating and trying to control situations I don't like. I want to learn to sit and wait on You and trust you even in the tough times. I want to develop endurance and character and look like You. I ask you to hold my hand because I have 29 years of back tracking to do to reprogram myself, but all things are possible when you are my partner in life.
Help me choose to fill my holes of emptiness with You first. Help me to seek you first. And forgive me for where I have already failed today.
Thank you for words from others to encourage me on my journey.
Thursday, December 20, 2012
Today I am frustrated. I am a feeling insignifacant and like I am not filling my role in Christ's kingdom. I am not selling all my possessions and going to a country to help widows and orphans, I am not working in a nonprofit helping find food an shelter for the homeless, so WHAT am I doing??
I process in the shower often. Maybe because I am a mom of young kids and that is the only place that I can think clearly?? Who knows. But today God gave me these words: "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men." Colossians 3:23
This is where I find myself lately! Exactly in this spot. I am a yes yes yes girl and really why?? FOR "men's" approval. I think my motives are good most of the time, but seeking my peers approval is a huge drive for me.
So today, I am committing my baby steps of faith to my FAITHFUL FATHER. My God who approves of me, my God who promises never to leave me, even when I fail Him. This thought comforts me more than any other lately. HE NEVER LEAVES! HE NEVER CHANGES!
Father, I am working today for YOU, not for mans approval. I commit my day to you, my choices, my actions, my words. Thank you for never giving up on me, your child, your work in progress.
I process in the shower often. Maybe because I am a mom of young kids and that is the only place that I can think clearly?? Who knows. But today God gave me these words: "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men." Colossians 3:23
This is where I find myself lately! Exactly in this spot. I am a yes yes yes girl and really why?? FOR "men's" approval. I think my motives are good most of the time, but seeking my peers approval is a huge drive for me.
So today, I am committing my baby steps of faith to my FAITHFUL FATHER. My God who approves of me, my God who promises never to leave me, even when I fail Him. This thought comforts me more than any other lately. HE NEVER LEAVES! HE NEVER CHANGES!
Father, I am working today for YOU, not for mans approval. I commit my day to you, my choices, my actions, my words. Thank you for never giving up on me, your child, your work in progress.
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